Season of Preparation

AHHHHHH!!!!! I honestly CANNOT believe I am going to Spain in a under a week! God is so AMAZING and I know this is only the beginning!


Right now I am in a season of preparation. It's the season that God will be preparing me for travel in the natural sense as well as the spiritual. As the days approach that I will be boarding the plane and making my way to Europe, God has been taking me on a rollercoaster of trials. There are a few issues God told me I would have to face and be released of before I can leave, and He has made sure they are brought to my attention. He has completely killed my pride, humbled me, and even humiliated me in this process. But I am coming into the understanding as to why I need to get right here in America before He takes me to Spain.

This season of preparation is definitely not easy and God is so faithful in all He does. He is providing for me, strenthening me, and molding me into someone I truly no longer recognize. My mother called me on the phone crying because it finally had hit her that I am leaving and will be gone for a long time. She then told me how proud she was of me and of the improvement and consistent progress she witness, I thanked her and when we hung up, I realized that immediately when my mother began to praise me, I began to consult the Holy Spirit and kill my flesh. Immediately I began to tell myself not to be too flattered because it isn't me she's proud of, but of what God has done in me. The old Tiana is a self centered, prideful and conceited woman, so when people gives comliments, she feeds off it. But the person on the other line with my mother today was not the old Tiana. That was someone who values God's opinion of her over anyone's, and who knows the old Tiana's weaknesses. I have truly learned so much just in this short time of preparation. Tomorrow is my last day at work, and other than the fact that I am extatic to quit my job LOL, I am in shock that Tiana is making such a move in faith. The old Tiana would have not let go of any of her responsibilities in "HOPES" that God would answer her prayers. Mainly because she didn't know God like I know Him. And she would NEVER give away everything she owns to chase a dream. The old Tiana walked by sight, the new one walks by faith. And boy, this is ONLY THE BEGINNING.